I Remember When... (Mama Nostalgia)

I Remember when...
I was barely 4.
And mama was on the phone a lot
by the window sill
with me playing on
the living room floor;
her talking to neighbors,
my aunties and uncles
bout daily rigormarole/gossip...
how daddy shoulda been around more
and when he went out in the morn
for groceries, not coming in till
ten at night
when the store was just around the corner... :-<

5 Years later...

I remember when...
I was about 9.
Used to take the bus with mama.
Running errands and visiting family friends around town;
while riding,
her with knitting needle and yawn...
when it came to crocheting...
no one could put it down better!!

3 Years later...

I remember when...
I was bout 12.
While playing B-ball with a friend after school
one afternoon in Jr. High,
outside on the court till it got dark.
Wasn't till he went home
I realized my 1/2 fair bus pass...
didn't have the other half for the bus.
So it got colder.
So cold, had to call mama
to come get me because
the piss was being frozen out of me.

1 Year later...

I remember when...
at 13 y/o, there was a time I wouldn't eat much.
Had a reverse tape worm appetite,
ribs were elbowing my stomach in a hunger fit...
But you knew what was to come from this neglect.
Side effect, I could barely walk around.
You brought me to the nearest ER
to get treated for severe dehydration...
giving me a wake up call just couldn't ignore;
And lesson learned, you saved me.

As I contined to grow,
older and wiser,
so did you.
Heeded your iodine advice and peroxide warnings;
preventing mental and emotional wounds you saw coming miles away.
Got my GED off the strength you believed in me
to be a better man in the making.

My point, for going down this lane of unlocked memories...
is to give thanks and show, no,
scrape the iceberg of cold winter nights(No HEAT),
sleeping on couch cushions as pillows, only peanut butter and jelly,
a loaf of bread to eat,
broke fridge but never let me go hungry love in return!

This piece is the peace in my heart!
With your caribbean blood in my veins keeping it pumping.
The footprints of your legacy in the flesh
that will carry this mama nostalgia to your future decendants;
Discipline them with the aura of your tongue!
I shall never forget, the times you've still say,
"Life ain't a bell of roses"
I understand that better now a days as a man.
Because if it was...
You would be the Mother nature of all gardens,
to learn, grow from...
THIS society needs!

© ”Honest Abe” Abraham Benjamin (Copyright 2012)

REPENT LETTER TO A QUEEN (RECKLESS INTENT 2)

Dear your Majesty,

My recent actions tell an unjust story of my character. A stinging desert miraj of unlawful words

was not the intent to disrespect your crown. Doing so, I've turned my own crown into one of thorns placed on my tongue

to repent this verbal offense of a criminal nature. The reckless decision I made when parting these lips,

I can't argue, warrants the crucifixtion feelings punishment placed on me within your power.

The intent to tarnish the earned image of my being...was not conscious. But a mistake being morally paid for right now.

We were never meant to suffer this barn fire of sorrow wedged between us via carelessness.

I remember us discussing the unworthy Kings and false knights in fools silver armor

blinding the reality reflection of their lackluster standards you found out the hard way about;

Revealing the true revenue of manhoods...which pale in comparison to a pound of your golden value.

The crest of your precious cusp aura, I felt commanded times of needed happiness ahead. And still do.

I admit and plea guilty to debt charges I've been accused of and ask for leaniency.

For the ones against me are acknowledged as follows:

1. Assault with a deadly weapon loaded with unlienced voacabulary in the 1st degree.

2. Endangering the safety and solace of a recovering broken heart via multiple past assailents.

3. And 1 account of indecent exposure and rude acts pain and mild suffering undeservingly of a queen I care about....in a public venue.

If it pleases you, my torment is growing and will continue...until within your descretion

I'm forgiven.

This sin I've comitted against one of God's work in the flesh,

has spawned a bump in our growing bond...

It would most undoubtedly humble me to be back in your good graces as soon as possible.

Though your anger is understandable.

But there is an unfathomed notion within me that holds out hope.

And a sense that your warm nature will bloom for me

to indulge in those beautiful big brown eyes soon.

See, that respecting your royalty means a lot to my soul.

It pains me, even if temporary to know your in minor disgust of my person

Never wanting the story of us to worsen with lost time...

Hoping you accept this affidavid of my heart on my sleeve

in this repent letter on the mercy of your character.

There's no way I can apologize enough.

In this court of your opinion, cause the public don't matter right now...

This tension between us can and should decease. But the power is in your hands.

In the case of my bad judgement, reckless intent is rarely given another chance.

I'm betting my bottom dollar, that you can and are willing grant me such a deed.

Sincerely with love that has become relentless only for you,

Abraham Nathaniel Benjamin a.k.a. Honest Abe

Copyright 2011