Unlocked Thoughts of Random Nature

I wonder....

how can he make parapeligic promises...?

Bet his future on guarantees with checks full of emotions his ass can't cash.

No matter how much finances come to him,

still ends up monetary and morally bankrupt.

tells himself he can and will do better.

Knowing deep down its a lie not willing to admit to.

Its no wonder how many friends he makes,

is still emotionally and spiritually lost and alone.

has a tollerable relationship with family,

And can't keep a stable relationship with a girl.

Doesn't understand how he can feel so cold with warmth for loved ones lies in heart,

parts of his puzzle no piece full of words has help piece together the peace disired for the longest.

can't stop targeting his sanity with rusty razor blades and harpoon arrows self inflicted wounds to Psyche.

Sadomasachist consumed with killing his character by 2nd nature to see results come to assess his life better.

5X felon of broken hearts and bodies to come.

Has yet to be sentenced due to the fact the scent of burn notice flames have to die out b4 anything can stick.

his own happiness has a restraining order against him now.

So the torment thats been lurking again can shine proudly from the domino effect;

"BEAT IT!!! LIKE A DOMESTIC VIOLENCE VICTIM WHO HAD IT COMING...IN THE ABUSER'S EYES!!!"

A voice tells him...

Knowing that figuring out instead of fingering out the underlining Johnson-chugging whore of a problem

that loves this attention to total collapse of his humanity,

Just waiting for when the auction block is removed from under feet so the two lynching nooses can tighten easier.

Don't cry for his welcomed pain and suffering brought all on by no one but his own doing.

his circumstances are funny as fuck in and sadder than shit all at the same time.

Talks to himself loud when alone to make sense of things. But don't we all at some point...?

"YOU LIKE EVERY OTHER DISPOSABLE MANKIND ATOM LIVING IS ON BORROWED TIME!

AND YOU ON THIS KIND OF SELF DESTRUCTION TIP...YOU SORRY SON OF A BITCH!!

HOW DARE YOU WASTE BOTH OF OUR LIMITED TIME HERE BY ALLOWING YOURSELF THIS MUCH SLACK TO FAIL AT EVERYTHING?!!"

Dropping out his first collegiate year in the school of hardknocks,

and he barely made it through the 2nd year.

Why can't he figure out the formula in the current purgatory state of his existence...?

So scared to succeed, yet amazingly not afraid to fail...

Screaming at the top of his lungs while looking at the self birthed beast of sorrows and confusion in the mirror

everyone has noticed all this time but him;

"WAKE THE HELL UP!!! THE REASON YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYBODY IS PASSING YOU BY ON AND IN SO MANY ASPECTS AND WAYS...

...IS BECAUSE THEY ARE FOOL!!

YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO DIG OUT OF THIS DITCH YOUR END WILL BE ENGRAVED ACROSS UNLESS SOMETHING IS DONE."

pondering the chimes of dead relatives and ancestors ringing annoyingly

in the dessert dry congo consciousness,

blowing into his eyes...

{Sadey, cousin Stanley, grandma Johanna....Jack Johnson, Joe Louis...the list goes on}

The next mode of action feels so clear, though so thunder storm cloudy, harder than hard-on brick thick uncertainty.

Guess the road starts here.

-“Honest Abe” Abraham Benjamin [© 2011]

The Emphatic soul: Being an Emphath...curse or blessing...?

I came across this article and after reading it was intrigued to the point I learned something about myself. Please leave your thoughts/take on this ability about it. This is something I touch on in my forth coming book as well. "Unlocked thoughts of a Porphet's Temple.

The Plight of Being Empathic
By Denika Laurie

How many times have you had an unexplainable emotion or thought only to learn later in the day that one of your loved ones was having a similar experience? Perhaps that person was going through something emotionally difficult but you experienced the symptoms? What about experiencing pain that just comes and goes all of a sudden or lingers for a while? Again, later you find out that a loved one was having some physical pain, but yet you experienced the symptoms. Strange or is it? What did you do once you discovered that your loved one was going through changes? Did you dismiss your experience as an odd phenomenon?

What if I were to tell you that these odd experiences have a name to them and that YOU are also defined within this name? The truth of the matter is that none of the above is as odd or strange as you may believe. If you have ever experienced other persons' emotions or physical symptoms then you are considered what is called an EMPATH.

Empathy is defined as: the intellectual identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another. However, an EMPATH is someone who energetically absorbs the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of others. The empath does NOT have to be in the physical presence of a person to undergo these experiences. The majority of people that are empaths cannot determine their own feelings, thoughts, or attitudes from others. They mistakenly taken on these emotions and beliefs as their own and can carry it throughout their life unknowingly.

So what's the big deal about all of this? Well, let us look at this a couple of different ways and then let us see how you feel by the time you reach the end of this article.

Empath Examples

You're a child that gets teased over silly things by the children in your school. As a result, you really don't like school and have a low self esteem. The experience in school affects you so much that a belief is created as a result. This belief is created by you as a form of coping and emotional protection. The belief may be something to the extent of "others do not accept" "I am not worthy of friendship", "I do not deserve to have friends," or "I do not love myself". This one belief creates many offspring that reproduces itself. This myriad of beliefs is now lodged in your subconscious mind and you now carry this throughout your adulthood life. What you are also carrying are the emotional expressions, thoughts, and feelings of all the children from back then that made them do and say what they did to you. You have basically merged with them emotionally and mentally.

Another example:

You constantly have negative thoughts. You're critical, judgmental, and skeptical. The thing is that you know this is not the real you but no matter what you do, you can't really seem to change things. No matter what you do, nothing works. People are telling you that you are very pessimistic and you don't like it, but you can't figure out why you are this way. In this instance, a number of things are more than likely going on. First thing is that you may have empathetically merged with some life situations that have made you react negatively. Also as a result of the situation, negative beliefs have formed and are also lodged into your subconscious. What I find to be most popular is the person who is the empath has been exposed to someone else that is very negative or they have even "inherited" the negativity from someone in the family. This is usually just empathic or energetic passing down of negative thinking and can be removed in an instant.

It is natural for us to connect with each and be able to relate with each other in life. What is not healthy or balanced, is taking on the actual symptoms of the challenges of others. It is a human characteristic to be compassionate during the time of difficulty. Often times in being this way, we want to help the other person by easing the pain and guess what? You may have actually done that before. Ever have a conversation with someone who is going through rough times and then when the conversation is over, they say "whew! Glad I got that off my chest. I feel so much better!" but then you notice as they walk away that you feel like crap? Yeah, you just absorbed everything like you were an emotional sponge to that person. You haven't in fact taken away the pain, just the heaviness of their load. Later when they come back to you to talk about their problem again, you realize that it is becoming more and more challenging for you to talk with them about what they are going through. This is happening because the negative emotions of the person are like a weight that suppresses the flow of positive energy.

There are many degrees of empaths. Some people can't even leave their home because just the mixture of emotions in the atmosphere, makes them nauseas, sick, or nervous. Others can leave their home but notice that when they touch people, they actually absorb the negative symptoms into their body and then they have to find a way to release it.

Regardless of how minute or severe a person's empathic abilities, it is important that everyone get it under control. I once met a lady that said she gets the physical symptoms of her children's pregnancies. I was taken aback and couldn't believe what I heard. Another person caught me off guard and asked me if I was drinking water with lime juice in it and said she could taste it. Well, I was drinking lime water and I specifically remember stopping and saying, wow, that is pretty deep!

You have many people that believe being an empath is cool while some believe it is a curse. Regardless of what you think you do not have to go through the physical symptoms of the other person. You can consciously choose to get the information ONLY so that you know how to assist the other person. If this simple awareness is not working then you may need to remove certain beliefs and emotions on the subconscious level which will make all the difference in your life.

Stay tuned to part 2 which will provide tools and techniques to help you overcome and regain emotional and mental control over your life. Denika Laurie has been practicing Holistic Health now for 8 years. She is an expert in Energy Work using Reiki and other energy healing methods, but now incorporates it with her most recent training called Theta DNA Healing. She provides private sessions, over the phone sessions, group workshops, and inspirational speaking to all that are in need. You can reach her at http://www.eternalkween.com or send her an email at info@eternalkween.com Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=Denika_Laurie

A Problem + Issues x Insomnia = Narcolepsy

Whether some of you may or may not have known....the past month or month and a half, I've had a case of sleeplessness insomnia. And some mild cases of narcolepsy during the day. Which problems in my life, off stage (financial and personal) have contributed to. 

But this set of issues spans all the way back from my late H.S. yrs into my early college yrs.

since H.S., I've been up many late nights due to issues with school (some procrastination and fear of being unprepared b4 and during my classes, which go hand in hand) and keeping a stable job to attain my desires and needs financially. 

I realize the things I have and will continue to describe may or may not mirror someone elses life problems, issues, or dilemmas. But I'm not trying to compare.

Of course when I started college, all the stereotypical things any college student has to endure made themself present to me. (financial aid, grants, adjusting to different form of schedule from previous yrs. pockets begging for change....etc.) And that was back in 2006.

Fast forward 2 yrs later and some months...Land lord issues (that made things very stressful, which stem back to about a decade, give or take) plus my previous school "releasing" me because of academic issues and standards. My own girl, or so I thought, dismissed me with no warning and ignored every form of communication I could think of...an unexpected blow. That's hard for me to admit, stung me. (even though we were cool for almost 1yr an 1/2) Not to mention a recent accident at home inolving a unstable ceilling in my room falling in on me. On a F'n Friday the 13th no less!! (you tell me if all this wasn't enough to build tension for a brotha to lose his sanity and go ape...)

But I digress, one of the only few positive things to come out of my sleeplessness, is that I'm writing more. If its God's will and me do my part I'll be putting an album and book or too out via all this pen/pencil pushing in the near future. And steady but surely, getting things back on track. And to the person who maybe reading this, somewhere telling me to suck it up and move on...you know what you can do with your lips and my rear end.

The Narcolepsy still comes and goes. And the insomia is also starting to fall back. It has been a trying past 2 and 1/2 yrs for me.  But I've realized I could not be here like many, though I am.

And i'll continue to be as long as I remember that Jesus and Poetry is my savior. (P.I.M.S.)