Open The Gates

One love, one heart
I'm thriving with both but still lacking one.
If you can't guess then I'll give you a hint.
Its the one two many lack for self

There are times I give it more to others than me
I've realized that a lot lately.
Restless nights mixed with early morn edible delights...
Have not fed the hunger i need to satisfy the tremendous appetite of daily...
That's brain and body with vibes and energy
Licking my chops to feast has been a task as of late.

And school is something I don't wanna feel like a burden like in the past
Stuck by circumstance in this chamber abode of confined chaos
The key to open the gates is hanging on the side of pants of Janitor named obstacle.
And he calls the other keys that surround it courses.

Forces of delays to grin and bare the days in this willing path I've found myself on
Half blindly, seeing myself forge forward with hopes of snatching the key to sanity.
Debit is good, but I have nothing in my name so my credit is dead-it.
First broken key...
Through these going on 7 years of spoken seasons showing my brethren I want to love and live through spoken reasons,
shortcomings made me question this gift of verse and curse.
Second Key broken...

Even though I got all this knowledge
Back up in college and trying ban the scarlet letters of falling back
But my soul is being tugged on again.
Self control is getting shifted again...
The supply of utensil tools has been deplenished
This causes me to ghetto electronically free write with my free right.
Third key, bent, but not strong enough to open the Gates of solace.

I'm a vet of many things, but only half have soaked inner peace through me.
Love for many is a roller coaster of a relay.
But I have no complaints of what place I'm in.
Its been better to me these days then the past 16 years.
Loosening the Master locked bars for enlightenment I desire.
My being has a poetic pacemaker implanted inside from the fifth year...
Scrambled scribes scratched the surface of the man I've envied to be.
Music, has sung helping hands of ancestors past
to wake me out of nights as the living dead in this bedroom.

So, when will I take more charge of these breaths to just Open the Gates?!!
Ain't no time like the present to present my future with a past to be proud of.
Over thinking a vagueness is a part of my astrological and personality make up.
I know.
But I'm breaking this habit slowly, yet swiftly.
Here...I sit by the computer still being taunted by this Janitor
Who is believed to hold the key to busting free of this caged prison of lost mind, body and souls....
Only to discover, this redemption key was in my pocket the whole time.
The gates were already unlocked.
Not having the strength and the illusion of being locked,
was the transition of independence, getting the best of me....


"Honest Abe" Abraham Benjamin © 2013

AN UNBROKEN PROMISE

AN UNBROKEN PROMISE



Honest Abe:


In the brisk of energy air of breath from your lips...
I can feel the invisible kiss of destiny songs in the key of life
stirring my soul like no other.
As my hand swallows yours in my palm,
the other caressing your thigh as our eyes link to purge a growing bond reflection...
to stand the test of time...

VERBAL:

TIME IS ALL WE HAVE I’M WILLING TO INVEST IT IN YOU… IN US
I SEE THE BEST AND FEEL I GIVE SOME SORT OF COMFORT WHEN YOU LAY UPON MY CHEST

OUR BREATH BECOMES ONE IN THE MOMENT
YOU BRING WHAT I WAS HOPIN WAITIN TO BE ROPED IN WHEN I SAW YOU ZOOM YOUR SCOPE IN

I KNOW ALL THINGS HAVE UNPLEASNATRIES AND I’M WILLING TO WORK AT AND GET PAST THAT
MY BACK TURNED IS SOMETHING YOU WILL NEVER HAVE

Honest Abe:


Even when the self placed burdens of torment are removed from my mind,
shoulders and back...the phantom weight left becomes the next task;
Its alias is, "LOVE" for me at times.
So I hope...for the next queen that welcomes my emotions into their heart palace,
can bare the burdens of what I have to offer being enough...because...its all I got to give...

VERBAL:


AND I’M HERE TO ACCEPT ALL
DOWNFALLS ARE NOTHING I WILL ANSWER EVERY CALL
EVEN WHEN THEY’RE UNSPOKEN
I DON’T NEED YOU TO SPEAK I’LL USE TELEPATHY TO DISCERN YOUR NEEDS
I WILL ANSWER YOUR PLEAS WITH NO NEED TO SAY PLEASE

AND THAT IS MY PLAN
WITH YOUR HAND IN MINE PROUD TO CALL YOU MY MAN


Honest Abe:


And you know what they say about the best laid plans...
So instinct plays the role of my scheduler of thoughts
wanting my love for your existence to never Seem constipated when unleashed
knowing brain farts clouding your perception of what I want and desire will not be attractive.
I've learned and still learning to be adaptive from these lessons of love.
Domestically hurt hearts never fully heal but slowly learn to rise above the pain...
The invisible blood stains from wearing it on ya sleeve left behind don't wash away in vain...in vein

VERBAL:


OVERTIME I'VE LEARNED TO OVERCOME PAST PAIN
YOU HELP ALLEVIATE PAIN FROM PAST LAMES SEEKING ENJOYMENT IN PLAYING GAMES
MY BRUISES WILL REMAIN BUT IT HELPS ME
SHOWS ME WHAT TO APPRECIATE AND WHAT I TRULY NEED
AND IN YOUR EYES I SEE SINCERITY
I KNOW I’LL HAVE TO SHOW MY AUTHENTICITY CAUSE I’D BE A FOOL TO TELL YOU TO JUST BELIEVE

Honest Abe:


Telling myself circumstances forcing me to move on and live isn't a guarantee
That I'll still be my same...still be my sane...with you...
Some may say I come with a WARNING LABEL...for many different reasons.
question is, can you handle my prescribed presence being good for you...even though obstacles of fate
w/o faith beyond our control believe I'm not what the Dr. ordered to keep you smiling..?
See though, What appears before thee,
is someone who doesn't enjoy spending another 4 seasons of loneliness in solitude bliss.
but someone does plan to spend the next 40 seasons + with an Empress for this Emperor.

VERBAL:

AND EMPRESS IS MY DIVINE ATTRIBUTE
I KNOW MY INTELLIGENCE ISN'T SEEN CAUSE WHEN DUDES LOOK AT ME THEY THINK “YEAH, SHE CUTE”
BUT I’M MUCH DEEPER THAN THE VISUAL PERCEPTION
AND I’M READY TO GIVE YOU ALL OF ME WITH NO INTERCEPTION…



Copyright 2011

The Emphatic soul: Being an Emphath...curse or blessing...?

I came across this article and after reading it was intrigued to the point I learned something about myself. Please leave your thoughts/take on this ability about it. This is something I touch on in my forth coming book as well. "Unlocked thoughts of a Porphet's Temple.

The Plight of Being Empathic
By Denika Laurie

How many times have you had an unexplainable emotion or thought only to learn later in the day that one of your loved ones was having a similar experience? Perhaps that person was going through something emotionally difficult but you experienced the symptoms? What about experiencing pain that just comes and goes all of a sudden or lingers for a while? Again, later you find out that a loved one was having some physical pain, but yet you experienced the symptoms. Strange or is it? What did you do once you discovered that your loved one was going through changes? Did you dismiss your experience as an odd phenomenon?

What if I were to tell you that these odd experiences have a name to them and that YOU are also defined within this name? The truth of the matter is that none of the above is as odd or strange as you may believe. If you have ever experienced other persons' emotions or physical symptoms then you are considered what is called an EMPATH.

Empathy is defined as: the intellectual identification with or vicarious experiencing of the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of another. However, an EMPATH is someone who energetically absorbs the feelings, thoughts, or attitudes of others. The empath does NOT have to be in the physical presence of a person to undergo these experiences. The majority of people that are empaths cannot determine their own feelings, thoughts, or attitudes from others. They mistakenly taken on these emotions and beliefs as their own and can carry it throughout their life unknowingly.

So what's the big deal about all of this? Well, let us look at this a couple of different ways and then let us see how you feel by the time you reach the end of this article.

Empath Examples

You're a child that gets teased over silly things by the children in your school. As a result, you really don't like school and have a low self esteem. The experience in school affects you so much that a belief is created as a result. This belief is created by you as a form of coping and emotional protection. The belief may be something to the extent of "others do not accept" "I am not worthy of friendship", "I do not deserve to have friends," or "I do not love myself". This one belief creates many offspring that reproduces itself. This myriad of beliefs is now lodged in your subconscious mind and you now carry this throughout your adulthood life. What you are also carrying are the emotional expressions, thoughts, and feelings of all the children from back then that made them do and say what they did to you. You have basically merged with them emotionally and mentally.

Another example:

You constantly have negative thoughts. You're critical, judgmental, and skeptical. The thing is that you know this is not the real you but no matter what you do, you can't really seem to change things. No matter what you do, nothing works. People are telling you that you are very pessimistic and you don't like it, but you can't figure out why you are this way. In this instance, a number of things are more than likely going on. First thing is that you may have empathetically merged with some life situations that have made you react negatively. Also as a result of the situation, negative beliefs have formed and are also lodged into your subconscious. What I find to be most popular is the person who is the empath has been exposed to someone else that is very negative or they have even "inherited" the negativity from someone in the family. This is usually just empathic or energetic passing down of negative thinking and can be removed in an instant.

It is natural for us to connect with each and be able to relate with each other in life. What is not healthy or balanced, is taking on the actual symptoms of the challenges of others. It is a human characteristic to be compassionate during the time of difficulty. Often times in being this way, we want to help the other person by easing the pain and guess what? You may have actually done that before. Ever have a conversation with someone who is going through rough times and then when the conversation is over, they say "whew! Glad I got that off my chest. I feel so much better!" but then you notice as they walk away that you feel like crap? Yeah, you just absorbed everything like you were an emotional sponge to that person. You haven't in fact taken away the pain, just the heaviness of their load. Later when they come back to you to talk about their problem again, you realize that it is becoming more and more challenging for you to talk with them about what they are going through. This is happening because the negative emotions of the person are like a weight that suppresses the flow of positive energy.

There are many degrees of empaths. Some people can't even leave their home because just the mixture of emotions in the atmosphere, makes them nauseas, sick, or nervous. Others can leave their home but notice that when they touch people, they actually absorb the negative symptoms into their body and then they have to find a way to release it.

Regardless of how minute or severe a person's empathic abilities, it is important that everyone get it under control. I once met a lady that said she gets the physical symptoms of her children's pregnancies. I was taken aback and couldn't believe what I heard. Another person caught me off guard and asked me if I was drinking water with lime juice in it and said she could taste it. Well, I was drinking lime water and I specifically remember stopping and saying, wow, that is pretty deep!

You have many people that believe being an empath is cool while some believe it is a curse. Regardless of what you think you do not have to go through the physical symptoms of the other person. You can consciously choose to get the information ONLY so that you know how to assist the other person. If this simple awareness is not working then you may need to remove certain beliefs and emotions on the subconscious level which will make all the difference in your life.

Stay tuned to part 2 which will provide tools and techniques to help you overcome and regain emotional and mental control over your life. Denika Laurie has been practicing Holistic Health now for 8 years. She is an expert in Energy Work using Reiki and other energy healing methods, but now incorporates it with her most recent training called Theta DNA Healing. She provides private sessions, over the phone sessions, group workshops, and inspirational speaking to all that are in need. You can reach her at http://www.eternalkween.com or send her an email at info@eternalkween.com Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=Denika_Laurie

Time....

Some of us treat it like life should be as...gift. By living in the present, and using the length of it wisely being worth wild. Others treat it like pest that eat your existence clock out of house and home. Letting it make and take you instead of the opposite. I wouldn't call myself an expert, but am a student of life, history...and by some peoples standards, bad timing. 

From my experience, time is a double edged sword. I start everyday I wake up as optimistic as the next man. Thinking I can have a great day today, with my plans firmy in place. Brush, shave, shower, dress and keep an eye on the clock. Having the feeling I'm gonna make it out of here when I need to. For the most part, I do. But never know what surprises are in store for me throughout the day. But somes days, time, makes me rush. Trailblazing like a road runner with no brakes. Knowing whats at stake if I stop it will be a waste. Waiting to enjoy the sweet taste of satisfaction when I've arrive to my destination tardy-less. Cause even with the speed of a demon and lack of patience, time is the acquaintence of no man. I've let it creep up on me too many times to count(when it came to school, work, and doing shows.) and it became, like me, my own worst enemy.

I've done my best to avoid the plagues of my history repeating itself. But like everyone else walking this earth, I'm not perfect. Fact is, at times, mistakes have to beat hard heads till they cum to the realization to learn from them. I guess in some aspect, you can call it trial and error. Life is a experiental process and God is the scientist. As far as I'm concerned, we're concockted in his holy lab, and are following his scientific method. I don't mean to get too religious on people, but thats what I believe. High school was a scientific experiment test for me. I failed it on more than one occasion, due in part to self-diaria procrastination. Once I figured out the right formula and got through it...most of my friends had moved on and I lost touch with a lot of them. 

If you linger on times past which can't be altered...father time will have you...mind body and soul. I've seen how its affected people I know. Thats why its so neccesary to set your own time table. Like when you lose some one close to you or not close, but you do know them(by disease, accident, murder...or was God's will to take them cause it was their "TIME"). Events like this(assassination of black leaders and admirable men and women of the past century, Garvey, Adam clayton powell, malcom, medgar, Lincoln, martin, Coretta, Huey newton, Kennedy, Tubman, Ossie Davis...the list goes on) make you reevaluate time, you existence and what you plan to do with both while your here.

Life is a process. And we are all a work in progress. Also should be graceful enough to open our eyes when a new day arrives to see you've been granted a new opportunity...to use time to your advantage to make history in your lifetime. I'm not trying to preech. I just firmly believe that when I wake up every day, if I haven't done at least one thing productive, prosperous, and positive by the end of it....I've just wasted 24hrs by being in this world.

But whoever reads this may just see it as the ramblings of poet/man that don't know what he's talking about. Take my inciteful message for what it is. I'm just hopefull someone sees where I'm coming from and it helps him/her in some way, shape or form. The truth has spoken....thankyou for listening. 

-Honest Abe