Affirmations from the Temple...

It has become clear to me that my road 2 redemption has been, and will be filled with expected and  many a unexpected side paths. History for me never fell short of becoming common reactions to my own premeditated karma moves. The power to succeed/fail from this point...has always been in my hands. I still fall short in many aspects at different points and time. And will continue to do so, since I'm human, far from perfect. A harsh reality. There are still more demons of my own making to conquer b4 solace comes...bruises on my soul are being tended to. I'm working on removing the word, "LOST" from the current dictionary of ME. But it hasn't fulfilled its purpose in the learning rubric God set up for me...yet. Pray for and with as more discoveries are "Unlocked" to see clearly the amazing grace of my existence.  #Living4prosperityandUnderstanding #AlmightyAintThruWitMeByAMile #Testimony

Thoughts of a Proximity Mine in my chest

I haven't felt love the way a heart should.

The most cherished organ in the body.

Yet sometimes, feeling special is not common.

Alien to a universe of flesh,

cemented in an aging solar system of blood;

its gets hard to breath

when vessels clog,

from mankind killing me with chimeny tongues.

The life spans of my breathren

is no less precious,

but there is no longevity for a gift like me.

to dwell on depression from this borrowed existence.

Depression leads to false hope.

False hope leads to no hope,

and with out it faith is never born.

How can life for a nucleus of mamals

thrive with no support...

too many give up on the importance of

keeping me healthy,

when the truth is, with no me

the soul is on life support.

Me and the spirit must be

in unison of chakras;

my funeral is only 5 minutes away

from 2nd thoughts

so mind me so I can matter more.

There should be no excuse

why inanament objects supposedly

warm me with hot coal feelings

within winter night memories.

Too many reasons,

why a schitzo tone is conjured inside me

exploding 10 billion crimson tomorrows and yesterdays

at the same time!

If happiness is mathmatic,

I need a tutor to help find the right formula.

So sadness & pain stay my distant relatives...

Someone save the sanity of this

sorry sucker for security solace;

unlike Bill Withers,

I may not have anyone left to lean on

or do you have selective hearing..?

-Abraham ''Honest Abe"' Benjamin © Copyright 2011

Unlocked thoughts of a Prophet's Temple concept & how it will be released

Unlocked thoughts of a Prophet's Temple concept & how it will be released

1st CHAMBER UNLOCKED

My book,(Unlocked thoughts of a Prophet's Temple) if you were unaware, will be "unlocked" soon. In parts anyway. I've decided that I'll be releasing my 5 chapter chapbook, for now, with each chapter as separated books themselves. The first one slated to be ready during this winter 2011(February) at the latest. And will be subtitled: "Humble Beginnings". Final preparation is in affect(including cover design and any last minute editing/proof reading as needed). It will be release under publishing company, 2 Pens & Lint. Followed by the other chapters (Which I call each through out the book, "Chambers") 2nd Chamber: Cussing a Curse wit Worse Verse; 3rd Chamber: L.O.L. (Lessons of Love); 4th Chamber: Spoken Soldier and 5th, Final Chamber: Unlocked Thoughts of a Prophets Temple. Those last two Chambers will be release as 1 book together since the last chamber will have nothing else but, the title poem in it.

If your also clueless as to what my book will be about, basically it is, : a look into my trials and tribulations as a said, "Prophet/soothsayer" with affirmations, passages and poems to express them in a creative understanding form. Over almost the past 3 decades and mainly the past half decade of things I went through. So in some aspect you can say its part autobiographical.

Sometime down the line I may/will re-release a revise version of my book as 1 solid book with all "Chambers" included. At a date TBD. There are other books in the works beside this one which you may dig to. But more about that another time. Just know the first of 5 will be out soon. And I look forward to your feedback. Now I know whats probably on you mind too, the question of, "Why not just release the whole book instead of in parts...?" Well, that was the original idea at first. But, It would have taken longer than I'd planned,(not that I was planning to/am rushing it out without thoroughly making sure everything's on point) and didn't have the financial resources to put it out as a full book. Then, after some friendly input to release the project in parts to save money...I was still a lil hesitant, but looked as the best avenue to take. Then thought bout it again, minus it just being a cost effective move. The bulb in my head went off, telling me it would be good marketing to follow this route as well. So from there, I ran with it.

Peace and thank you for listening,

Abraham "Honest Abe" Benjamin

Truth Commission Movement © Copyright 2011

Some Unlocked thoughts....and revelations 2

As I sit here in my room at 7:56am on a Saturday morn...can't help but, just think.

Realizing this is my first blog of self assessment this year, my future still in my hands.

Going through some internal twist and turns via my heart, mind and soul about some of the women in my life. The choices I've made, and the changes I plan to make of weighing my progress down type, bad habits. So far, I still have unshakable feelings for, this woman I've developed a soul stirring instant bond with...over that past year. They were hard to describe at first. Even though a stable friendship is apparent, something inside still wants to take it up a level in the long run. Whether she'll come to the same conclusion as my heart, only time will tell.

And my other dear female friends I've known for some time are baring burdens I empathize with, to a distinct degree. That mind weighs heavy for them. And I pray there temporary pain and struggle...subsides to a point that they can live. I love them like fam. So it hurts me too an extent when they going through it. I almost feel like my own burn notice I partly developed over some time, has my Karma, backlashing into their lives. But I don't wanna sound like I'm making their trials and tribulations bout me.

My over analyzing of things and situations and the need to get to the bottom of it, has gotten the best of me at times. But shit is crazy now a days. Plus hearing news reports about mysterious birds and animal deaths. Economic resources (including some food) is running down in short supply. Cause bad weather is doing more damage to crops than b4. Over the the next few years or so, Water levels in NYC may rise to a point to over flood the whole city. (Not a good look) I'm like WTF...? Also, apparently a new zodiac sign to astrology has given the rest a twist of fate altering the signs of most held dear since birth. Technicalities and all. smh.

Anyway, I've come to some re- revelations as well as news ones as of late.

Many of my bad habits (like most other people) can be summed up with the old adage, "If you keep doing what you been doing. You gone keep getting what you been getting". Thing is, my CP Time with people, places and things. As well as my Procrastination and for some strange reason, a fear of success to a degree...have pointed in a neg. light with that saying. Affecting my will and determination to be employed again. Affecting my financial state and also hindering my guarantee to my self, to get back to my academics and get my desired degrees (a BS in business management, AS in some discipline of engineering and a Masters in another field). But Sitting on my ass and saying it that I'd do this and that have never really been my style. So from this point I'm gone be like Nike with my actions...and JUST DO IT!! You know about it, for the most part when I'm done and ready for you to acknowledge my moves. This entry today will be my testimony and reality check to remind me....TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE! STOP FUCKING AROUND AND CREATE THE AVENUES OF ACCOMPLISHMENT AND ACHIEVEMENT TO MAKE MY ASS HAPPY ALREADY!!

I think this is an appropriate time to end this log and get to business on the grindaholic road 2 redemption. And shake this sluggish energy fully off I've felt since the year started. By the grace of the universe and almighty, with the power and means to become available, I'll be on my way to Chicago by Sunday morn/afternoon. Its about that time.

L.O.L. (Lessons of love) final draft of a new piece in my Book (Unlocked thoughts of a Prophet's Temple)

L.O.L. (Lessons of Love)

FOR A LONG TIME NOW,

I’VE FELT MY HAPPINESS WAS ENGAGED

TO THE ANGEL OF DEATH;

AND SHE ONLY PAID ATTENTION TO ME WHEN

HER FIANCÉ WASN’T AROUND

ALL OF US ATTENDED THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS,

AT THE UNIVERSITY OF LIFE

ONE OF MY MAJOR COURSES

WAS ONE OF MANY CLASSES IN

LESSONS OF LOVE;

THIS BANDIT BROTHER FROM BROOKLYN

WAS WET BEHIND THE EARS

WHEN IT CAME TO THIS SUBJECT,

NERVOUS AS SHIT.

NOT KNOWING WHAT TO EXPECT

THE NOVICE IN ME EXPERIENCED MORE LUST THAN LOVE.

ONE OF THE LESSONS I'VE LEARN SO FAR IS,

THAT HALF THE WOMEN I'VE MET OR KNOWN

HAVE THE PREMISCONCEPTION THAT,

JUST BECAUSE I WRITE AND PERFORM POETRY

THAT ANYTHING I SPIT AT THEM IS BS INSINCERE GAME;

AND NOT GENERALLY FROM THE HEART

IF THAT’S THE CASE,

TELL ME WHAT WOULD YOU CALL MISOGYNISTIC LYRICS

FROM A "RAPPER" THAT’S DESIGNED TO

MAKE YOUR LEGS PART FOR THEM...?

ADOLESCENT LYRICISTS THAT RAPE THE MC ARTFORM;

JUST TO GET YOUR NIPPLES HARD AND PANTIES WARM.

SEE, THERE WAS A TIME WHEN

MY HAPPINESS ACTUALLY GAVE ME THE TIME A DAY.

IT CAME TO ME AT POINTS IN THE FORM OF A FRIEND,

LOVER AND IN UNISON;

HAD SACRED DESIRE DAY DREAMS,

FROM THOSE DAYS TO THIS MOMENT

I'VE FELT THAT SHE WAS, WHAT A BROTHER NEEDS.

NOW I ADMIT IT,

I'M NO SAINT.

MORE LIKE AN OFF/ON SINNER,

I’M KIND OF A FLIRT.

BUT, FOR THE MOST PART I CAN BE ONE IN A FRIENDLY WAY.

THOUGH I'D BE LYING TO YOU BY SAYING,

THAT VERB, IN MY VOCABULARY DIDN'T COME WITH A PRICE TO PAY.

SINGLE OR ATTACTCHED;

WHEN ME AND KARMA BROKE UP A WHILE BACK,

SHE LEFT A SCARLET LETTER BURN NOTICE

IN THE CHEST OF MY AURA.

HAPPINESS BECAME DISTANT WHEN SHE FOUND OUT

AND READ THE SCARLET NOTICE OF PAIN

LEFT ME ALONE ON CAMPUS!

SO THESE WORDS ARE MOSTLY WHAT I USE TO STAY SANE.

SOME FORCE OF UNGODLY NATURE I BIRTHED DONE DAMNED US!

MAYBE THIS IS WHY MY LAST DISTANT LOVER AND FRIEND LEFT ME.

MAYBE MY LACK OF ABILITY TO PROVIDE THE BARE NECESSITIES

OF A RELATIONSHIP DOOMED IT FROM THE START.

SO MY BOOKS ARE ALWAYS OPEN...

THAT POSSIBLY ONE DAY I'LL GET THE FORMULA RIGHT.

THESE LESSONS OF LOVE AREN'T ALWAYS EASY TO LEARN.

PEEP THE CANDLES OF MY HEARTS WINDOW SILL

BURNING AT BOTH ENDS;

I NEED SORROW NOT TO BE CONSIDERED MY SO CALLED "SIDE CHICK"

MAKING IT HARD TO BEGIN A FRESH LOVE AFFAIR

HAPPINESS & I CAN BARE FRUIT THAT’S NOT STRANGE.

HOW THE HELL CAN SHE BE A PART OF MY FUTURE

WHEN THE 3 MAJOR TESTS; TRUST, COMMITMENT, AND LOYALTY

DON'T SHOW UP AS "PASSED" ON MY TRANSCRIPT...?

IT’S A DAMN TRIP HOW MY GOOD INTENTIONS

TURN INTO BAD HABIT TRAITS IN SOMEONE ELSE'S EYES!!

THIS IS NOT THE RANTING OF INSECURE MARTYRISM

TO CLAIM DESPERATE SYMPATHY,

LIKE ANY REAL MAN, IT JUST FUCKS ME UP

MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY

WHEN THE TRUTH SPEAKS THEIR SOUL

BUT I’M LOOKED AT AS A BOY CRYING WOLF.

SO HOW CAN A MAN BREAK DOWN A WALL

OF AN OVER PROTECTED HEART,

WHEN SHE USES HIS ALLEGED HEART BREAKING ACTIONS TO COME,

TO ADD MORE BRICKS...?!

IT’S LIKE I'M DAMNED IF I DO,

AND I'M DAMNED IF I DON'T!

SEE, ALL I HAVE IS HOPE.

AND APPARENTLY MORE STUDYING TO DO,

BEFORE I CAN TRY TO PURSUE HAPPINESS

IN THE FORM OF LOVE AGAIN…

TILL THEN,

MY CURRENT G.P.A. WILL KEEP MAKING IT CLEAR TO ME,

"YOU ARE NOT READY!"

^{-“Honest Abe” Abraham Benjamin [© 2010]}

Mine and the Movement's next moves and book update

Peace TCM Family.




Its still SCORPIO SEASON IN FULL BLOOM!! Lol.
Thank you again as a continued/new supporter of me, my work and this movement.
And that today brings you new, satisfying blessings ahead.

WHATS BEEN HAPPENING...

An new place for poets and promoters alike has been created by internationally known poet/author/musician Ainsley Burrows at poetryexchange.ning.com Where you can link up with other poets/promoters and end up booking a show for your self anywhere in the world. I've recently joined it. And for the first time anywhere have, for the most part, my entire artist resume along with an updated bio. (poetryexchange.ning.com/Honestabe)


Also, I decided recently to get a vimeo account (free one) which I'll most likely be uploading old and new vids as well as an alternate to/from my youtube account/channel. Here is the link below for future reference.

http://www.vimeo.com/honestabe


My amazon wish is still available for belated b-day gifts for you to get me. Just saying. lol.

http://www.amazon.com/wishlist/1CUZM5SU4OCCK




And yes. I'm currently working out details and making arrangements to make it down to ATL, PHILLY, BALTIMORE, CA, TX, NC & SC as well as other areas included on the west coast, and further North and South east, within the next few weeks and months. (Trying to set up a tour heading into and by early next year at the latest)



Pass my events on to a friend in the area who can make it too.
Lemme know whats up. get back at me anytime.
Bring your positivity, inspirational presence and I'll bring the truth with me. ;o)


Peace, productivity & prosperity. Stay blessed & elevated. B-)


PS: And as for my album, which I'm aware that many are anxious to drop. Will be getting it in some more time in the studio real, real soon. So that I can be ready in time for l8r this Winter. With prod. by MC and producer Chris Phoenix. And Producer/singer-song writer Omni Blaze. Still touching base with the guest stars that will be on it. And believe me when I tell ya...we bout to make some magic happen on wax. Trust. Be ready for "Brooklyn's Lost Son" coming to venue, :) and a retailer near you. B-)


My book,(Unlocked thoughts of a Prophet's Temple) if you were unaware, will be "unlocked" soon. In parts anyway. I've decided due to $$ limitations currently, that I'll be releasing my 5 chapter chapbook, for now, with each chapter as separated books themselves. The first one slated to be ready by months end/early Dec. at the latest. And will be subtitled: "Humble Beginnings". If your also not aware what my book will be about, basically is, : a look into my trials and tribulations as a said, "Prophet/soothsayer" with affirmations, passages and poems to express them in a creative understanding form. Over almost the past 3 decades and mainly the past half decade of things I went through.

(Another important reminder) FYI: Here is some info via Brother named Eric Normil Mendez pass to me and ask to spread the word about.

"The NAACP Jamaica Branch Youth Council is hosting a Poetry Slam Event on Nov 13 2010. If you are someone you know is interested in competing please have the follow this link to feel out the application
acrobat.com/#d=GhIwBYseR9zI6B3nnBStlA and email it to naacpyouthpoetryslam@gmail.com. If there are any questions about the event please email you questions to that email address. "


I see positive changes in my future. And in light of that, here is an oldie, but goody of mine. Enjoy!! :o)

I Am Change

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VxWCpMbvwHg



Feat. Performance in Bridgeport, New Haven & Hartford,CT
Winter 2011
Details: TBA


And as always for any more info about shows coming up or to just holla get at me check the sites below.

Also visit these sites:

http://myspace.com/honestabeizdtruth

http://www.reverbnation.com/dtruthspeaks

http://www.honestabe4u.blogspot.com/

http://www.youtube.com/abestube

http://www.twitter.com/t_izhonestabe

Dtruth has spoken....thank you for listening.

-Honest Abe

Almost there...and new CT show added

So, these places are where you can find me next as I plan get an official tour started going into 2011. My Book & CD should and will be ready b4 years end. I hope all is well and if time and/or $$ persists, you can come and support a brother.

Sept. 16th, 2010. (Thursday)

Lyrical Riot

Feat. performance

Liquids and Eats Cafe

118 S. Warren st.

Trenton, NJ

8pm-11pm

Cover: $5(for Liquidsandeats.com mem.) $7 for non-members

DATE AND VENUE CHANGE:

Sept. 17th (Friday)

Extraordinary Words

Feat. Performance

Uncle Mikes Restaurant and Lounge

57 Murry st. (Bet. W. Broadway & Church)

New York, NY

8pm-10pm

FMI: Werdsmannyc@gmail.com

Sept. 30th (Thursday)

"Voice for Haiti"( a spoken word-performance event put together by the Haitian American Student Association)

Feature performance

Brooklyn College Student Center

Campus Road &amp East 27th Street
Brooklyn, NY US

7pm-10p

Free Food!

New CT show added (Oct. 21st)

MIC2SOUL!

Pearl Lounge

169 East st.

New Haven, CT 06511

Hosted by CT Spoken word artist, TABU

starts @9pm-1am

Feature Performance

for more info:

MIC2SOUL@YAHOO.COM

Feat. Performance in CT

Early Winter 2011

Details: TBA

And as always for any more info about shows coming up or to just holla get at me with email associated with the group .

Also visit these sites:

www.myspace.com/honestabeizdtruth

www.facebook.com/dtruthspeaks

www.reverbnation.com/dtruthspeaks

www.youtube.com/abestube

www.twitter.com/t_izhonestabe

Dtruth has spoken....thank you for listening.

-Honest Abe

The Top 10 reasons you shouldn't talk about how long someone takes in the bathroom (especially when they can hear you outside the door)

1. You should know better and...shut the F' up.

2. Do you got next...? If so, learn some damn patience!! especially if you just gotta pee!! Hold it damn it! And if you gotta weak bladder, and you a dude...get your stuff checked Mofo!

3. Do you even care...? I mean, how would you feel if someone did that to you or a relative of yours in a public place...? not so justifyable.

4.Who the hell are you to judge...? So it only took you what...5...10 mins. to bless the bowl and you were done. Just like that. You didn't take that long. So, what,now you want a f'n medal...?!

5. Did it ever occur to you that its not a smart idea to talk about this person doing they

do..do...especially when they can hear your ass right outside the damn door?! Numb nuts.

6. When was there a time limit put on how long a man/woman's bowel movements should last...? So you the parceling God I see.

7. I should leave the door open a little just out of spite to give you something to complain about.

8. I'm surprised you can't do nothing better with your time beside talk trash while someone is taking a Dukie...I don't know.....unless there is its the only toilet occupied and you have no choice but to...whats that word again..? Oh yea, WAIT!!

9. You have no idea what this person ate. Coulda been lasagna, with extra cheese, for lunch and beef stew for dinner, not to mention maybe bacon and eggs for breakfast. So this indivisual s could be really, UNLOADING something awful in that bowl.(a.k.a having the "Bubble Guts") So I dare you to go in there and try to get them off of there, with all your friggin complaining. I swear, I swear...you will regret it!!

10. If it was me, that you were talking about. And I know you and I know your voice. The next time I was in a room or vehicle alone with you....I'd lock all the doors. Make sure the AC is turned off. Any fans too if around. Close and lock all windows. And while in there with you, I'd say, "Remember that time you were talking about someone stinking up the place in the bathroom; and you didn't know or think they could hear you...? Well, that someone was, me!! And I heard every word you said." Then next, strap or tie you to a chair; cause I knew my bubble guts was coming because I chose what I ate, just for this moment...go right near your face and unleash, "THE SILENCER". Just let it marinate and engulf the room. While sticking around just to watch you suffer. And hey, I can stand the stench of my own stink.

Question is, can you....? LMAO!!!

Back 2 Brooklyn Saturday and what else that has been going on.

First things first, Just a heads up, that this Saturday, July 10th. I make my return feat. at a Brooklyn Venue( in general/period) Which is rare for me. A new spot to me, which I look forward to gracing the mic and stage for a good cause.

More words for Haiti (Fundraising event)

Brooklyn Exposure

1401 Bedford ave. (Bet. St. Marks pl & Prospect Pl.)

Brooklyn, NY

Time: 3pm-8pm (Doors open @ 2:30pm)

Cover: $5 Donations

As for what else has been gong on....

I just finished doing an online interview last night. Which I updated everyone on my progress of recent projects, where I stand on how I see the future of spoken word and such. Click the link below if you wish to listen. (My interview starts around the 60 min. mark/9pm when I called in.)

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/agsupreme/2010/07/08/supreme-entertainment

Other than that, still been looking for new employment. Which I need to drag my feet less on and get on the good foot about asap. Looking towards having my own spot around early-mid 2011. So I gotta a lot of work to put in for that to happen. I'm on a mission to extinct any debt and financial woes plaguing me, with no time to waste. So, I'm not going to continue to describe how, but like Nike...just do it! None the less, while thats a work in progress...I'll make sure to keep everyone abreast of other dealings as I go along. Giving you the best of me into the new year ahead.

Peace, positivity and prosperity to you.

-"Honest" Abraham Benjamin

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http://www.facebook.com/dtruthspeaks

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